Self-awareness is a supreme gift, a treasure as precious as life. This is what makes us human. But it comes with a costly price: the wound of mortality. Our existence is forever shadowed by the knowledge that we will grow, blossom, and, inevitably, diminish and die.
Irvin D. Yalom, Staring at the Sun.
This post is based around the ideas of Yalom and represents Part 1 of an introductory exploration of his excellent book, Staring at the Sun.
What was it that inspired me to choose this topic for this post, at this time?
Having reached 70, I have experienced a greater sense of my own mortality. Increasingly, I have seen some friends become ill. Then, in 2018, my husband was diagnosed with prostate cancer.
Fortunately, his cancer was contained, but radiotherapy affected him badly. I witnessed my previously strong and healthy partner suffering and struggling, emotionally and physically, with painful and distressing symptoms.
Inevitably, it altered the balance of our relationship; we have always shared tasks and suddenly I was in the role of carer, albeit temporarily, in an intense and new way.
Whilst life has now thankfully returned to its previous pattern, what happened in 2018 has meant things will never be the same.
We are changed; a little older, a little wiser, sadder, more reflective and also grateful and appreciative of the fact that we have got through a difficult experience together…… and that we are both still here.
Existence itself feels somehow more miraculous and more beautiful.
Yalom has described this as an ‘awakening experience,’ (‘a confrontation with death that enriches life,’) one in which a person’s mortality comes sharply into focus.
Other such experiences, besides illness, may be divorce, loss, trauma, ageing, children leaving home, job loss or retirement.
Alongside this, for us, now, the awareness of our mortality looms larger.
There is one who remembers the way to your door: Life you may evade, but Death you shall not.
Thus we both returned to Yalom’s book with renewed interest.
As in all his writings, hope lies in authentic living and loving, meaning, altruism, deep connections, and a lifetime of immersion in art, music, literature, and nature. A keen appreciation of the blessedness of everyday life comes from death awareness. Although painful and frightening, Yalom maintains that death awareness, and even periodic waves of death anxiety, if prompting self- reflection and change, can add immeasurably to the quality of one’s life.
Man cannot possess anything as long as he fears death. But to him who does not fear it, everything belongs. If there was no suffering, man would not know his limits, would not know himself.
Tolstoy
Yalom’s Theories About Treating Fear of Death in Psychotherapy.
‘….the more unloved your life, the greater your death anxiety. The more you fail to experience your life fully, the more you will fear death.’Yalom
“I used to think that eighty was a very old age. Now I am ninety, I do not think this any more. As long as you are able to admire and to love, you are young.”-Pablo Casals.“If you don’t know the exact moment when the lights will go out, you might as well read until they do.”
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When Death Comes.
When it’s over, I want to say; all my lifeI was a bride married to amazement,I was the bridegroom, taking the world into my arms.When it’s over, I don’t want to wonderif I have made of my life something particular, and real.I don’t want to find myself sighing and frightened,or full of argument.I don’t want to end up simply having visited this world.
Yalom has many further ways helping others to cope with the fear of death, several based on the views of the philosopher Epicurus.
Read more about these next week…….
Some powerful thoughts to think about.
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Thanks so much Joe. Appreciate your comment. 😀Linda.
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Thanks so much Joe. Appreciated. Linda.
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